Kangshengnism

NDP

2007-08-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

its ndp today..42 years. i think most people are recollecting about the past today and so am i. i just felt like blogging again. just suddenly. i guess i am an illogical person after all. letting my feelings decide for me instead of my head. life's pretty stressful now. prelims are coming but i dun feel like i'm really working hard enough. trying to change things. really trying. my confidence is near rock bottom though. trying to find something to motivate me. why do i always let myself get distracted? all those thoughts. i try to think about why i'm in this state now. i looked back and thought, hey what if i didn't do this or that?. my mind's in a whirl now. i've lost my direction. need to find my philosophy and stick to it. that's probably why my GP is so screwed up too. i keep thinking and asking "what if". could i go mad one day? i don't want to stay in this spiral.. maybe its because i dun have a faith? maybe that's why they're happier. they dun question whereas i, question everything. but when will i find the answer? why aren't i working as hard as before? i've tried being driven by fear and being driven by motivation. no i jus dun feel anything. always hated puzzles. yet now i am one. i dun wan to live like this anymore. why can't i be successful like them? i've really tried not to think so much yet i still always do.. its time i make a stand and decide my path. what i must follow. get out of this spiral. and i'm going to change my life. i dun wan to live in misery and emptiness anymore. without goals. without hope. so much negativity. i must get out of this...

Past week

2007-06-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hahaha..what a week.
Lessons learnt this week:
firstly, never ever study at a house that has entertainment. it'll never work.
secondly, according to ernest, never go for a stranger. yup claudyne is a stranger to me according to the Ernest Theory. I dunno how that ended but oh well. *shrugs shoulders.
thirdly, be true to yourself. Shrek 3 was nice. valuable lessons, good laughs.
fourthly, dun be afraid to make friends. then they won't be strangers. hahaha this contradicts the Ernest Theory again.

Kiran gave a good suggestion during breakfast today, compile the Loser Book
let's try to recap
Loser Lines:
1) Everyday is valentine's day
2) Its ok not to have have a date on valentine's day
3) Study comes first.
4) No money how to have gf?
5) (some help please, jonnie, jeff?)
6) No expectation, no disappointment
7) Its ok to watch movies alone
hahahahaha. sad but true.
ok back to studying for jct. good morning!

Insights.

2007-05-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. just had bbq yesterday. many lessons learnt.
Lessons learnt:
1) Always get jeff. he can entertain crowds of all ages
2) Never bbq corn the way u bbq potato and leave it on top of the charcoal. ITs just too hot.
3) Must put the chocolate in a tray, then the tray in a aluminium wrapped bowl with water to make fondue. we wasted one bar. LOl
and most valuable lesson is
4) Always ask the pretty girl, even if she's ur dad's fren's daughter, even if she keeps staying close to her mum, to join u and and ur frens and ask for her name! or else u can search friendster for eternity and still not find her. ya i think she dun use friendster. haiz. some help please? PL girls rock. Woohoo!

Been a month plus since i started training and teaching casimir, darren and co. everyone's pretty good now. So much to learn from them. from now on we're gonna train field too. Its much easier to juggle on field but harder to dribble with tricks. oh well. practise.
Still remember the wish i made when i started playing football 1 and a half years ago. to play for singapore. to play in Europe. play in spain or italy. that would be so cool. play for ac milan. or barcelona! I just keep training and learning. hopefully. someday :)
Yes JCT is coming. Am i studying? yes. but the pace? damn slow. nvm, shifting to gear 2 this weekend. Will cut down each day's exercise time to 1 hour except for swimming la. Need to train arms. Arms look ok but no strength. Nafa is coming. Mum's friends say i look thin. Hm.. k lo. eat more and train more then. need more money to eat also.

The PSP is so tempting. nvm 1 more month to go. My white psp plus pouch! total cost about 415. so far got half already. can't wait to turn 18.
Got to know claudyne better. she's nice. The beginning of a friendship. Hahaha
I feel positive and I'm loving it!

a long long wait..and goal!

2007-04-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

Today's training was great. Felt relaxed today, listening to promiscuous girl on the way to simei. was thinking whether i should ask ben to come next week. he lives pretty far, serangoon. but i live pretty far also what. so yup i'll ask him. We started by playing possesion today. Its a really good warm up. I practised some juggling also. My boots felt tight so i was adjusting it. Then we played possesion again cos now bigger group with alvin, joel they all coming in. Didn't receive much of the ball during this. But ole quite a few people today. hehe. Then came match. Our team was quite attacking so i played right and occassionally left back at first. Passing was so-so, too eager to pass so after i dribbled a bit. haven't really taken a shot yet but ya slowly. made some tackles. JZ likes to dribble, so i snapped at his foot today. It probaby didn't hurt cos he came to boast to me later that he got pass me and that i kicked his foot. yup next week i'll teach him how to use crutches. after the break we played better, i started to dribble more and making more runs. involved in a few counter attacks but still no goals. Then for a period of time i was last man. Felt so bored there. made some clearances. Then some of them decided to rest and i wanted to rest too but samuel they all eventually convinced me to play so i did. now it was 5 on 6. i was on the side of the 5. We played possesion and slow pace so we took turns to sneak up and yikai sent in a nice cross. i tot benji would get it but he didn't so i should have tried to score. so we continued and it was starting to get frustrating cos the weather was getting hotter. So we decided to stop after one more goal. It was our turn to start so i pass to alvin and said" ok let this be the last one". he passed it back to me, i passed to daniel, daniel pass to yikai during which me and samuel made runs, samuel to the centre and me to the empty spot on the left. yikai spotted samuel and he crossed but he used too much strength which made the cross just nice for me. Benji came out but i got to the ball first. I jumped, hanged in the air, the ball came, i saw the space between benji and the post and yup, headed the ball in to the top corner beyond benji's reach. eh the goalpost was like slightly less then michelle's height and 1.5 m wide. and benji's huge. HAha..I screamed GOAL after that. JZ kinda sarcastically congratulated me after that. "wah you score leh today i nv score." well kid, get used to it cos this is going to be regular. and get ur crutches soon. and with that goal the game ended. Fucking Gabriel and Sam kept irritating us the Yakuto and Sakuto alterego's "Shi meh?" I shall bring this to class and start irritating them as well. Hehehe. Looking forward to next week! I want more Goals!

Oh my i actually updated?

2007-04-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yo. Hi frens. Maybe i should call my blog once in a blue moon. duh its because that's how often i update. you get the point.
Ok lets start with the house. Yes my crisis is over. My room is still intact! We got new floors from the hdb. Yeah life's pretty good now.
After the past events, i've learnt a lot. There was this period when i sort of, 'woke up'. Kinda monk like. I discovered what it meant to be calm. It just helped me to think clearly. Especially during tests. I didn't panic at all. No increase in heartbeat. I didn't make jokes or talk much. IT was good. For a while. I almost really turned into a monk. Or should i say, Taoist. Being concerned with Self. How one should keep to one's self. But i tried to share the benefits of all this.Which was really frustrating. I started to feel superior. Didn't understand why they couldn't understand what i was saying. Then i realise well maybe because they haven't gone through similar experiences. And i realised that the key was balance. You can't be a joker or a monk all the time. You'll go crazy. seriously. We all need to know when to stop and when to move. Yeah its really easy to say. I'm trying so hard to do this everyday. But life is still pretty happy.
This has been the most fruitful two months of my footballing life. The moment i learnt how to be calm, i applied it to my street football skills. I learnt the mechanics behind the movement of spheres. Its all the same, be it basketball, hockey, football, pool. I was so excited when i succeeded in such a short time doing all those tricks i saw online .I'm a much better player now.
I still remember i applied the same logics to my hockey. and I dribbled the hockey ball that night in my room much better than i did for the whole of last year. Its really true, once u get the concept, everything is much simpler. But i guess i became too eager to try all this. Which lead to my outburst at not beig given the chance to play for the team. Thankfully they helped me to realise that i was letting my ego take over me. Daniel taught me the basics of field again. I applied the same logic to it and i enjoye playing that saturday. Looking forward to this saturday's training.
Ok time to update on some other stuff. ya i confessed to her that day. Well we settled it maturely as adults. She's got her priorities and we are still friends. Sort of. Not so sure after how i accidentally provoked her by teasing her a little about her little mishap on stage with the announcement. haven't talked to her since. She avoids eye contact with me la. Wat can i do? like that lo.
And then today also. wah la jeffrey. nice one la. lucky. claudyne wrote him a note. I think its very nice of her. You don't see mr ang writing jeffrey a note for helping with the go green day video rite? Ya la i find claudyne attractive la. i tot the whole world know already thanks to ben. but find her attractive only what. Well being Friends would be nice. But i dun think she has a good impression of me. Then again, how many people left in this world has a good impression of me? People only see the noisy, joker, occassionally himbo side of me. Ya, they dunno when to stop. Jeffrey says i should take action. But i dun dare leh. not like she will eat me up la but awkward la. just awkward. Thanks to ben who opens the gates of hell when he plays canon in d. Whole oac know i'm attracted to her. Which pretty much ruins my chances of even being friends i think. And that time when i say i was happy when we exchanged smiles of acknowledgement. or at least i think we did. Haiz. Now i don't think that will ever happen again since its been blown out of proportion by the paparazzi people aka my friends in tj. Ya i guess that's life. Claudyne, if you'e reading this, I'm REALLY SORRY for any disturbance caused. Didn't know that people would even talk about this high up in the mountains in nepal. But i'm used to all this gossip since my secondary school days so i'm still able to take it but i dunno if u're used to it therefore i sincerely apologise once again. Haiz. Till next post Folks!

what the.

2007-02-13T20:51:00.001+08:00

yo ho ho. haven't blogged for a longtime i see. hello readers, real and imaginary. yeah i haven't blogged for a long time. many reasons. mostly is becos nothing really meaningful to blog. and even if its meaningful, i couldn't find time to blog which actually means that i'm too lazy. But there are somethings that you have to do even if you're lazy and tat's reporting for your NS medical checkup. yeah. patriotic huh? my ass. thanks ns.sg. for wasting my time, screwing up my online registration, make me go down to queenstown and missing a day of school. i got the letter asking me to go for a medical checkup so i went today. 1hour+ travelling time. supposed to start checkup at 3 and i was there at 2.40 jus like any good enthu armyboy would be.i got there and nice lady told me to first register myself and apply for deferment. i did that and then lady at counter gave me the killer line: okay you can go now. I was like, what the fuck? go? what about my checkup? don't u guys want to like, check my balls or something? lady explained: Oh u just needed to fix ur registration, ignore that letter we sent u, u will have to come for the medical checkup midyear. we'll inform u again. wow. i got owned by SAF. thanks ns.sg and SAF, wait till the media hears about this. then again what can the media do. we have no right we have no say and we long to be free one day. haha ironically they make us say it every year. well that's not all folks. i went home. and then my parents came home with dinner. and they told me they gonna demolish my room. and i'll be homeless for a week. Wow. you see, it all started when dad said ok our living room the tiles is popping out.honestly i still don't feel the pop or whatever there is. its serious u know. my whole block kenna. cos some asshole use the wrong cement when building our flats. and apparently my house's tiles is in a very serious condition. it doesn't look serious to me. really. so my dad was like: yeah let's just renovate it and ya kang sheng u're gonna be homeless for a week and i dun really care whether u're going to sch or not. <- ok he didn't say that but me,my mum, my bros all know he didn't really think of my and our situation. my second bro feels that we shouldn't do a fuck about it until like someone falls into the flat downstairs when we step on the tile. mum and me both feel that we should jus change the 5 or 6 faulty tiles. dad says we must follow the "standard industrial procedures" and change everything. everything means the living room and my room. my room used to be part of the living room. which is why i'm the only one affected if we renovate the whole damn living room floor. and they gonna remove the nice seashore wif sea shell wall outside my kitchen which mum loves. so mum fought back for me. and dad raised his voice saying we're ignorant and do not know how professionals work. and mum got angry at dad for raising his voice and starts shouting back saying how he's a lazy fucker who doesn't even want to clean his own toilet. <- its true, mum told him to clean and he said he would hire someone to do it. so paris hilton rite? lol. and mum start complaining about how he's never helped to clean anything. and then they had a cold war. and mum gave me a box to put my things and ask me if i want to stay in a hotel during march. wow. hotel like good rite? she said hotel 81 fren. yeah. study wif all the whores. great. its either that or grandma house. i prefer fren house. so i only need to bring clothes. can share notes. but its times like this when u know who ur real frens are. i dunno who i can find to help me now. grandma's also in ill health i dun want to disturb her. uncle's barely able to support his family i also dun wan to trouble him. i sound like i hate my dad rite? i guess i do a little. i used to worship him u know. then i realised he's a chauvinist. ego. he's not a bad father. he brings home the dough but ya. that's about all he does. he doesn't like, play wif u, buy stuff for u. hell i dun even think he knws what subjects i take in sch. which reminds me. he gave me the swiftest reply when i told him i failed promos. he said: Retain lo. wow. thanks dad. my dad is like, he's living in those ancient times. poor pr skills. he's like, the russians. yeah. like the conservatives. he say we do. that's what my mum shouted at him jus now. that he onli knows how to shout at people and expect things to be done. where as my mum is more understanding. more modern. but of course my mum also has her irritating side sometimes. my eldest bro is like, a monk. strict, smart, neat and he expects u to live up to his standards which is kinda unfair. my second bro is like the hulk. when he gets angry he explodes. me? i dunno. a mix of them i guess. looking at my parents, i reaslised what marriage is about. marriage and children are the things that keep 2 people together when they're no longer in love with each other. it keeps them together so that life goes on normally and also in case they fall in love again. u know, i think when the 3 of us are grown up and married, my mum might just divorce him? i dunno. we'll see how things go. i have to worry about where to stay for march. mum just gave me a box. its like in tv shows when u're fired. they pass u a box. till then, dear readers. till then. and happy valentine's day and chinese new year.

Heartbrokened.

2006-08-25T22:50:00.001+08:00

爱的潮水已经退,我的真情不再随便给...
Sometimes i really wish i knew what to do. I guess its just too late. Another case of wrong timing...

HAHAHAHA

2006-07-23T14:02:00.001+08:00

What a strange coincidence but i love it. Shawna knows what i mean. HAHAHAHAHA...
But still, feel free to apply, Capricorns..

Your True Love Is a Capricorn

Why you'll love a Capricorn:
Hard working and driven, a Capricorn will work overtime to win your heart.Be prepared to get wined and dined, even once you're convince that your Capricorn is the one!
Why a Capricorn will love you:
You don't rush things. You know it will take a while for a Capricorn to trust you, and you can wait.Social and outgoing, you can introduce normally shy Capricorn to a great circle of friends.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Weapon(s) of Mass Destruction

2006-07-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

And here this week, there is a war going on between Israel and Lebanon. But little known is that there is a civil war happening now right here in the continent of Punggol Block 645 #09-340.
The Prime Minister, My Dad, received a handphone offer from Singtel. but he didn't know which weapon to chooose so he asked the Minister of Home Affairs, my mum, to ask me to help. I was in school and my mum called me and asked what phone was good. I was like " What do you think i am? A walking singtel ad? Who in the world remembers all the models? Of course i need to see the phones rite?" So she heads for the Ministry of Sinistry, my 2nd eldest brother KJ, to help. So they bought the phone(aka weapon of mass destruction). same as kenneth's one. the slide open nokia one. That's when the whole thing started. PM has new phone but doesn't really want to use it. He passes it to Minister of home affairs. HOM minister keeps it safely in her cupboard. KJ asks why she doesn't use it and she says "oh, ur dad says its a 3G phone, i dun have 3G sim card so cannot use." Me and KJ are dumbfounded. That's lik saying u can't watch tv without a SCV cable vision connection. So me and KJ prove her wrong by inserting her old sim card into the damn phone. and it works of course. Then she starts complaining that all her numbers and messages and pretty pictures are gone. And then she says she will learn how to use it. Fast forward to today, or rather, jus now. HOM minister passed the phone to the PM cos she's sick of not knowing how to use it. PM comes to me for help and the General, my eldest brother KH, boldy chose to get involved(lucky me). And disaster ensues. The PM's 3G sim card goes into the new weapon. but all his contacts are missing. nobody knows why. PM gets angry. He wants "solutions, not more time" to quote the General. PM says he's got a 3G sim card so this shouldn't happen. Kh asks whether he knows what the 3g sim card is supposed to do and the PM says he doesn't. PM storms out. General complains to the Mister Minister Sinister about how he chose the wrong phone for them as they dunno how to use it. Minister KJ says he did what they ask. Choose a value for money phone with high tech capabilities. He feels he shouldn't be blamed if the users can't comprehend the technology. he says he can imagine the General, PM and HOM as cavemen poking a UFO. HOM minster overhears and says that general makes stupid suggestions for suggesting to use infra-red to transfer the numbers from her old phone to this new phone cos to her, its very troublesome to use infrared which is free but she apparently doesn't think its free. KJ explains to her that its free and really fast and the home affairs minister reiterates her stand that its "just too troublesome". KJ complains that what can he do since he's already offered to do all the dirty work. choose a good phone and they say its too good and too difficult for them to use, choose a bad phone and they says its bad. no wonder service standards in singapore are low. general KH is really pissed when mum says she will learn how to use it and she will manually transfer all her stored templates and numbers into the phone cos she likes it that way. DIY. and then she promptly shuts the door. General looks at me in agony while the Minister Sinister goes swimming. As for me, i just continue reading the sunday times before deciding to blog this story out. Oh, jus for your info, i'm the Minister of the Ministry of Sound :)

Cycling

2006-06-21T12:44:00.000+08:00

Early wednesday morning and yesterday was the final day of the council camp.
Let's start with monday la. Wasted the whole afternoon studying onli economics. then evening wah lan eh only me and royce and lek met for dinner leh. All the rest of the councillors of my batch except vicki, weren't going. So we watched all the performances. yeah they're all better than my batch la. hahaha everytime they mention our performances i get amnesia. And then no confidence walk. break tradition sia. played soccer with fadil and ivan. not really play la, is like we just dribble and try to go pass each other. used some of kaka's tricks. hahaha got improvement leh. did some stuff i didn't know i could do. taught fadil a trick too. Then took taxi back. vicki insisted we sent her back. fine. she paid the most for the trip anyway. Then reached lek's house. Me and him were like exchanging comments on the spain match then after the first 10 mins, he slept. haha. spain won by the way. a comeback. nice goals by torres. Then i fell asleep on the chair. Then his ah ma come out scold us. haha. Then the next day we cycled to EAst coast. Wah lau. So many close shaves sia. If I had a beard also sure kenna shave off. Cycling is difficult. Especially in singapore. now i know that singapore is really cyclist unfriendly. The stupid bus stops especially. The passengers that alight, the stupid advertisements. and very cramp. many many times almost langgah into people or things. Then reached east coast where i trained my dribbling with a super big beach ball while the councillors made sand castles. i also dunno what's the significance so i just continue playing the big ball wif royce and lek. The worst part os cycling is that u must cycle back. But surprisingly the return trip from east coast was better. We cycled on the road and it was much faster this time. it was raining too and the feeling is great. Let's fast forward to last night. haha no kinky things la u dirty minded reader. watched germany thrash ecuador 3-0 then I studied till 2am. then fell asleep. woke up at 4.35. yup that means i missed 90% of the england sweden match. but nvm the last 10 mins got 2 goals. 1 by Gerrard which i thought would be the winner for the match. but the England defence suddenly thought they were playing dodgeball. Sweden had a throw in and the ball just bounced while the england defence dodged and the ball went all the way into goal. KNN. No i dun think larsson deserves to be credited for the goal. melberg touched it. and quite redundant touch also. well what can i say. World Cup always has funny things happening. i watched the highlights after that. The Joe Cole volley goal has to be the best goal in the tournament so far. He chested it then volleyed it and lobbed the whole crowd including the keeper into goal. Joga Bonito man. he flicked the ball to Gerrard who gave a superb header into goal as well. Sweden's meatballs are good(go ikea at queenstown to try) but their corners are even better. Damn nice sia their corners. Makes me hungry now. Swedish meatballs... well. more world cup action and of course must study before it la. bye!

Fucking Ladders

2006-06-19T11:49:00.000+08:00

I hate ladders. especially the stupid shaky ones. now i know how maids feel. no wonder they're so stressed. If the cops want to know the motives of those murderous maids they should just try using the ladder and change the curtains and clean the fan at home. i bet they'll whip their gun out and shoot someone immediately. they'll be like "Clean this fucking (*@&#& faN!"*whips out the gun and shoots uncontrollably. I know that cos i feel like doing that right now. Mum thinks its really funny that i shiver while standing on that ladder. YEs i'm afraid of heights. YEs the ladder seems think its some osim product and keeps vibrating. Maybe it should be called iLadder. or Uladder. Helps you to gain really strong calf muscles after all that vibrating.
Alright enough of stupid household products that try to imitate massage devices.
Let's move on to more recent news. Native speakers! That's something we came across during pre u sem. Let's see. How many foreigner teachers did i meet before. I think mrs Maesten is counted la. she's an aussie who teachs history though. I dun understand leh. What's wrong wif singlish? Many other countries also got pretty bad english. For example, Japan. well everytime i watch masked rider, i notice that their english grammar is pretty bad. But i dun think the japanese have a plan like ours to hire foreign native speaker teachers eh? Foreign talent seems to be the only solution this days. Maybe someday when our government isn't good anymore, we should hire foreign talent to rule us. I think that should try to find out what's the secret of the students in singapore who do well in english and then share it with the rest. Actually we all know the secret what. Read la. But nobody really likes to. So they hire foreign talents to tell u to read. Its the laziness and dependency on others of most singaporeans that they should try to change.
Maybe we should just invent our own language in singapore la. Speak Elvish? Like the LOTR like tat. dunno who come tolkien got so much time can invent his own language sia. Then the chio elf and aragon speak english halfway then speak elvish. i dunno what's their problem also. cannot stick to one language? Tonight gonna miss the part 2 also. Going to council camp 2006. see the people stand down. then go lek's house watch football i think. K. gtg. bye.

Mr brown

2006-06-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

harlow harlow welcome back to the blog. I know i haven't blog for very long already very pai seh. writer's block la. u know what is writer's block or not? its a special time when writers can't think of anything to write. Sounds funny rite? its real u know. Its lik sometimes u try to shit. but u sit there and try for so long. really still no shit what. That one is another kind of block la. OK i no more block already so i can blog again. come i update u my life. I now in tjc. happy? not say very happy. sad? also not sad la. dun expect too much and u'll be living comfortably. that is something i learnt. past 6 months a lot of things happen. frens came and went. now i in a class that's quite ok la. a bit divided. many cliques. but still i'm still survining. i nowadays saturday go swimming. that's why now tanned. lik my surname like that. tan. the ang moh always pronounce it the same way as tan what. Ang moh reminds me of the mr brown's latest post. the NUS one. go www.mrbrown.com and see la. sibei gao siao. the ang moh zhar bor see campbridge all that not happy then see NUS letter then happy. i think she see Woodbridge she more happy. then the ang moh's lao bu still say NUS guys are cute. oei. please la. Singapore guys all cute ok. dun say one small group only. Am i rite or not, my brothers? NUS reminds me of Pre Uni Seminar. Jus came back from it. Duh PRe U Sem was held in NUS la. What is PRE Uni Seminar? its like a camp la. then every jc and the millenia institute will send students there. wear blazer. then we talk about national issues la. there's one nyjc guy that benjamin i think he super famous already. should have videoed him then put on youtube sia. Classic. And every group got filming project! my group got this very steady barber in serangoon maju avenue. quite ulu. but his shop very nice. i got permission liao then i upload here k. then we finished the video lo. then before they screen rite. then they say got competition sia. and my group got top 3 judges choice hor. i the video editor hor. must be watch too many video until become quite pro in making video liao. hahahahahaha. eh dun liddat la. let me bhb a while la. but it was damn fun la pre u sem. i regret not asking any questions. i quite pai seh ma. but some people dunno pai seh one. ask those stupid questions. wah lau. buay tahan. and the food was really good la. the cream puff. best sia. go to my flickr and see k? k take care. i dunno what else to blog anyway. see you. bye

harlow!

2005-12-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Harlow! Its been quite a while, eh? merry christmas and a new happy new year and happy chinese new year soon. HEre i am, on the last day of 2005, blogging(duh.) Due to overwhelming response i have decided to commercialized my posts and just blog when people tell me to! hahahaha joking la. well what have i been up to during this past holiday? Well, i went to work. yup i worked at gv for 2 weeks. thanks to all visited me during work. hah i earned quite a bit. (ssshhhhhhhhhhhh..) and after quitting it was football all the way. Playing and playing, now i'm confident enough to HAVE A NEW TEAM! yup. the new team rocks. and if we train hard we 're gonna rock more. can't wait for our first match. i just came back from football tis morning wif KFC. played at ring for lik 15 mins onli but hey i managed to get 1 attempt. missed the ball by 3 cm sia. the post robbed my debut goal. anyway, there's always next time. Can't wait for more football. Oh ya i got into tj 1st 3 months. gonna work really hard now. i jus went for the KI test tat day. that test was weird. which reminds me, i should go and check the results now. I got to know a great ger recently. hahaha. life is good.. yup. let's hope 2006 will be even better. i know it wil be, cos WORLD CUP 2006 GERMANY IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Football. The Beautiful Game. Thanks for reading. hahaha..

Man U..

2005-11-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Yeah I'm a Man U fan. and yup its been a realli bad week or rather bad season for the team. 4-1 loss to boro and the 1-0 loss to lille made it even worse. What has happened to the Man U that i've supported for the past few years? Vicki says Man U Fans are " people that dunno anything about soccer so they just choose Man U loh". well vick, what do YOU know about football to say that about us Man U fans? nvm, i'll not waste my breath talking about that. Man U used to be the team that could do miracles like losing at first half and coming back to hammer the opponents at the end of the game. we're the team that ended arsenal's unbeaten run. Those were the good old days and i was certainly praying for that to happen for the lille match. Blame the pitch, blame the weather, blame the ref, but why not just blame the players, Sir Alex? Why not blame yourself? I think man u has far too many injuries and has made too many bad decisions. Roy Keane says sell them at january and buy new guys. Yeah tat's certainly a good idea. but will we even get new guys that are good? who will be attracted to come to man u wif the current state that we're playing at? Who should we get? I still dun understand why Sir Alex doesn't start Park Ji Sung for the matches? Is he treating PArk as another Ole? another Super Sub? i wish solsjkaer was playing. i wish keane was playing. i wish beckham was still here too! even Eric Cantona! Anyone. Anyone who still plays wif desire. The young guys, alan smith, ronaldo, rooney are really trying hard but the rest, silvestre, ferdinand, nistelrooy are really jus not doing well enough. The current midfield, they dun pass well, they dun win aerial challenges, they dun even run! Run and fight for the ball Damn it! far too many sucky players now and all the good guys are injured. when they come back its probably too late. Saha's coming back. well, that is considered good news. we need many many good news. then again Saha isn't tat good either. The players are spoilt. they're rich. they're playing for man u not to win but for their pay. We're no longer the team that people say can do the unbelievable anymore. and yup next match is against Chelsea. Chelsea's form has dropped a bit but still i really can't see how Man u is gonna win against chelsea. a draw is what i'm praying for. Solutions to Man U's problems? I would say, just use the young players like what arsenal is doing. just use rossi and pique. who cares if they're inexperienced? we've got nothing to lose. In the meantime, sack those guys like silvestre, richardson, fletcher, FERDINAND(this guy is a must-sell), and then buy some young guys and some good old guys Like Ballack! young guys i would say buy Jermain Defoe! for defenders, jovin says ledley king. I want Gerrard in midfield. but since Gerrard could say no to chelsea, then there's almost no hope that he'll go to Man U. speaking of chelsea, yeah i bet there are many quality players there that are sick of sitting on the bench. I say we buy those guys and let them play for Man U! but all these should just be temporary. Just to maintain the reputation of Man U. in the meantime continue to train the younger players up. I guess our future is in the hands of the 3 Rs : Rooney, Ronaldo, Rossi. We have to be strong, we have to keep going. We are after all, Man U. This may be our darkest hour. But we will never surrender. Well, Man U versus Chelsea. Let's hope that miracles will happen..

If It doesn't work, shake it!

2005-10-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

I watched this documentary on the evolution of man and after what happened recently, i've accidentally conducted a test and have come to the conclusion that nothing, how much we change, how much hair we lose, how smart we become, how we dun talk in grunts anymore and speak with even weirder sounds, how many clothes we wear or dun wear, some things never change. take this situation for example: Your computer. it hanged suddenly. You restart it. It makes a funny sound and doesn't start properly. You restart it no matter and keep hearing that funny irritating sound. Now, what do you do? Tis is is something which i think all humans will do. SHAKE IT. You just hit the damn CPU and you shake it like the way WWE wrestlers shake each other in the ring. This was what i did to this com after it hanged and made strange sounds. And guess what? IT WORKS! Mother Nature does things in strange ways that cannot be explained. Our ancestors did the same. Whatever they wanted, they whacked it. Animal -> hungry -> Whack it. Ta-dah, food. And let's put it in the modern context. Computer -> Not working -> funny sound -> restart ->restart fail -> whack. And since it works, why not? Instead of just spending ur time dismembering the CPU and making it worse, Just Shake It. Now that sounds lik a good slogan. I think i deserve a Nobel Prize for this discovery on how to repair computers. Some things just dun change no matter how much we change on the outside. So next time if anything doesn't work, whack it. That includes classmates. HAHAHAHA!! Ok, see ya next post.

2005-09-23T15:43:00.000+08:00

If you want me to wait,
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say,
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Since I was a young man
I never was a fun man
I never had a plan and no security then
Ever since I met you I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me
'Cause everybody
Needs someone that they can trust and...
You're somebody
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait,
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say,
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you
I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

Don't tell me The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me That you need me
And stay right here with me

Why?

2005-07-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

tis post goes out to the clueless women out there. i will do my duty to defend the male from the evils of those chauvinistic women that know nuts about us. Christine, please, we are not pigs. u'll begging for a pig to fuck u in a few years time i think! so think before u call us that again! Since the dawn of time we know that men has this thing that makes them different from women. yes. it is the Ego. what is this amazing thing that makes men so, strange to women? to the people out there who do not know what ego is, well here's what ego is to me. The ego is present in all men. Examples of it would be: 1)Playing an arcade game and getting thrashed and then u realise it was a girl who thrashed u! and u spend the rest of the day sulking and cursing the girl. 2) constantly slamming women as weak pathetic creatures 3) trying to show that u are the most handsome and strong aka alpha male. such are just some examples of ego and the behaviour of men caused by the ego is hated by almost all women. But unfortunately this ego thing is exactly what makes us men. Ego, our pride. i can't explain it really well either. It makes us behave the way we do. the way we feel so lousy when the fairer sex proves to be victorious against us. the way we "act cool", our arrogance, our pride. Imagine if we had no egos. There would no gentlemen in this world anymore. men and women would behave the same way i guess. No guys that would make the first move, no guys that would be willing to protect their gf when someone else trys to snatch them. so u see, the ego is also what makes u women loves us. the attractiveness u girls feel. the manliness.you gals just got to accept it. the ego is here to stay, or else its the end of the world. the world can't exist wif girly ppl all over the world. vicki says guys wif big adam apples have big egos. i dun think so, how is the adam's apple linked. isn't it supposed to be just something that makes us have low voices? We know how big our egos should be so gals, please relax and stop thinking we men are super egoistic all the time. its lik we know that u gals aren't super girly and vain all the time. Its just a side of us, which is permanent. so accept it, gals. :) stayed tuned to the next topic.

hols

2005-06-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

well yesterday we made a trip to wj's house. he's fine now but his foot is wrapped. so far he still won't tell us what the hell happened but all we know is that
1)his cousin was involved. 2)glass cut him 3)he went to hospital 4)he heard the patient next to him shitting! hahaha hilarious sia that part.
hm.. been thinking..how do couples maintain communication? well there are couples i've observed, some do not talk at all. lik today that couple in the mrt. the both of them don look at each other. not a single word was muttered. and yet they both react at the same time. stand up, go out, tap ezlink. freaky. perhaps communication isn't that important?
have you ever wondered? how did the guys manage to woo girls in the past? without hp, msn..
imagine man. you'll probably spend ur whole day thinking and wondering what she's doing. pros and cons of technology on dating in modern day.
pros: you can reach her anytime, anywhere. you have more choices of things to do.
cons: you prob won't miss her much. communication is so easy, its lik she's always wif u. and humans, we all sure take things for granted. thus u won't miss her much. it won
t be lik in the past where ppl looked forward to that call from that special someone(phones were ex then,wait a min, what about when phones didn't exist?!). these days its easy to reach ANYONE. thus more flirting, less faithfulness. ppl were more shy, more conservative. reality was less harsh. things weren't that open. humans were more easily content. its lik, in the past, people have pretty much boring lives. love was hard to find( no communication equipment, work, conservative society) so once they found a partner, they settled down. how many people from the older generation had more than 2 or 3 gfs? (excluding my dad) but now these days, there are so many equipment to help us find that special one, problem is, we doubt ourselves and our choices even more. cos when it becomes easier to find, we often feel that the grass is greener on the other side, we never stop looking thus never settle down equals to no marriage no kids and everyone's unhappy in the end. parents are unhappy they dun get grand children, u won't be happy being alone, government's not happy that population so low you get the point. greed. technolgy has helped to increase greed. thinking about it. i think ppl in the past were happier. i realli admire them. how they managed to find love without the technology that has spoilt us, all of us born in this modern time. technology has made life harder in tis aspect of dating. am i the only who thinks this way? nvm, someone prove me wrong then.
we really should look at the past. dun take things for granted anymore. greed. when can we ever escape from it?

new skin!

2005-06-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

Yo.back after so long.
k updates in my life:
1)Council Standdown is over! I'm not longer needed for duties! Retired! Thanks to the juniors for the camp. though some parts disappointing! the slideshow! why?! Why so many sec 3 photos?!and the food. wish had better food. nvm. The montage. great man. mass saboing.
The race at sentosa! teamed up wif christine and jaime. possessed the's only word to describe them.hahaha..it was fun i think we'll win. the sec twos were kinda demoralised. some other groups were quite mean to them. i think they did ok what. first time then sentosa already leh. so guys keep it up.
2) boot camp. everyday i go to school by 8 for lessons. everyday for last week, this week and next next week. the teacher is good, mr soh. just that he a bit kenna bully by wilson they all always asking for early go off and mr soh agrees de. i've learnt a lot though. but now mrs tay teach the electrolysis part. dun realli understand. the electric cell made me more confused. the ss workshop not bad. serious. not that boring what. combining what i learn there and what i learn from miss neo, i think i can answer source base already. shit i keep forgetting to buy foolscap. must make mindmaps already!!!and start the jianbao hw..
3)life. today went for prata wif hao ming, jia xin, sharon, li zhen, mei ling, ya qin. then later went back to school wif sharon li zhen mei ling. realised their bad impression of me. meanwhile kept asking them with questions for my book on women.hahaha..so many theories.
4)love life. hmm..i dunno.thinking about the past and how i crashed..now she talks but nah still not frens. will we ever be frens again. chances look slim. i wasn't mature enough. i gave up easily. but at least i still think i did the right thing by breaking. i couldn't make u happy. wanted u to be happy,even without me. and yeah its good to see u happy wif him.. i think i've finally let go already. looking back, i shouldn't have avoided u lik that after the break. have only myself to blame for not being able to stay as frens. once again, it shows that i wasn't matured enough then. now, a new person had appeared in my life..but i think i'm content wif what it is now..i fear history repeating..am i mature enough now? someone show me a sign..
well. that's it for now. dinner time..

stress

2005-05-18T20:14:00.000+08:00

more stress is coming.. i can feel it.
well common tests have ended. I know i failed everything. what should i do from here.. i guess i have to go back to basics. Start from chapter one. trying to be positive. trying not to think what dad will do to me.
today after the e maths exam suppose to go to police station de for the questioning. wah kao then must what put back chairs all that, lucky managed to escape from that. then we took taxi there. went in for questioning..he ask i answer, then he write down the whole story.then must sign at different areas. how are they going to close the case i wonder. but nvm, nothing to fear since we didn't take the phone. I think not fair, shouldn't vicki they all also go? since they were wif karl all the time? haiz. dunno what to say liao. adriel damn funny, he not good in chinese mah then the police ask in chinese if he took the hp. he tot is ask if he had hp wif him now so he answered yes and the police kenna stunned. then adriel ask him to repeat the q in english then he answer no. HAhahaha i wonder how that policeman felt sia. ben chow also kenna. the person criticised the ben dunno how to iron shirt. how relevant is that to the case?! haiyo..nvm.
then after that went home le
star wars episode 3 opens tml! but no money to watch.. i wan to collect my shirt also. onli 300 in singapore wor. darth vader shirt wor. i wanna wear that shirt go watch star wars.. haha..
May The Force Be With You! (i wish i had the force..haiz.)

freedom

2005-05-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

well the guys came over to my place yesterday. morning i went to meet ben chow then we went to ya kun for breakfast. then went to get my freedom gundam..then we went to meet miah then go arcade find ying jie..went to library to study. then study lik 15 min librarian chase us out cos no self studying on weekends. ccb. so we went to my house. haha showed them around punggol..then we ate at punggol plaza and read comics there also. didn't study much.. then we played basketball..sorry guys i know i sucked.haha wasn't in serious mood to play. then after that they went home..i built freedom then..around 12..finished at 3am. its addictive sia. now freedom stands proudly on top of the shelf. will take a pic of it sometime when the camera comes back. mum dad went to bangkok. took camera wif them. they'll be back today, prob in an hour's time. that'll be the end of my freedom. ahahaha. tml labour day, must givebirth.hahahaha that was ying jie's joke by the way. well after so many months finally chatted online. every journey begins wif one small step. my journey of forgiveness and redemption. wish she will forgive me someday. then i can move on.. i'm sorry darren, i wish i can change the impression of me that she has. then maybe u won't be in such a difficult position. i'm sorry. hopefully u won't hate me too. still feeling a lil disappointed about karl's incident. why..can't they put themselves in our shoes? can't they just trust us? is this how fragile our friendship was? 3 years le, suddenly everything seems to become so fake to me.. nvm,no use thinking about it le. hope we can start again. its hard to forgive those who sinned before. hope u all can forgive us and our past. hope karl feels better too.

sad..

2005-04-29T20:29:00.000+08:00

what a sad week. a maths. then karl lose his hp. see his face i also feel sad for him. realli disappointed. this is the amount of trust. this is truly the meaning of biased sia. i guess people will nv be able to not judge people by their past.. Went to cut hair today. really bad. hope it grows long soon..reserved the freedom gundam as a present to myself. 46 bucks. haha realli wanted it mah. collectin it tml..

wilson

2005-04-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

today i finally went to your blog. i finally understand your side of the story.
i was wrong to be so be straightforward with you. My comments were really very insulting. I'm sorry i did not consider about how you would feel. I wish you would tell me, at least the frenship would still be there. why did you destroy the frenship first, before telling me the reason? Just suddenly, you didn't talk to me anymore. How did i feel? Why didn't you tell me.. i regret not being sensitive enough but i tot i could say what i thought..i'm sorry. I knew you were bearing a grudge against me after i heard what you said. i was always afraid of you being lead astray by others, thats why i was so harsh on you. but everything backfired i guess. I should have known that you would take her side. you're right, i have changed. Filled wif hate. condemning people all the time. i finally realise it now. I notice the way u treat me these days too. I dun wan to hate you. After what happened between us, i dun really dare to say how i feel anymore. its the same painful feeling again. the feeling of losing a friend, the feeling of making a mistake. last time i felt that was after i broke wif her. Do you know how important as a fren you were to me? I took your kindness for granted too. i'm sorry. i finally realise that i'm just like those people that i hate. My attitude, my comments. what right do i have to hate them, when i myself am just lik that. Thanks for showing me what i have done. But still i want to ask you something..do you want a friend who tells u what u want to hear or a friend who tells u what u need to hear? i miss the old days when we were still pals. But your msg that day. I think it has changed me even more. I dun hate you. yet. i dun wish to hate you either. After this incident, i dun think i hate them anymore either. I know you all will not forgive me. Help me apologise to her, wilson. Help me apologize to them too. i don wan to be hated either.. now i know how torturous it is. Hopefully we will be pals again someday. Last of all, i wan to apologize to you wilson. Sorry.

long time

2005-04-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

its been quite some time since i last came back here. today i am able to come back solely becos dad asked me to help him do some online ticket booking. they're going to bangkok. so much to say but now my mind's in a blank. been thinking so much these days..so many questions in my head..when will i find the answers? why am i afraid of the answers? so fast i'm retiring from council and ncc le..what have i left behind? at least the rest have achieved things like gold(dance, choir, co, band) and some wif honours(band) what about me? what have i done? have i done all that i wanted to do? everyone's happy these days..all except me? few more months then i'll be out of this school too..why does time travel so fast? its too fast for me..too fast. thinking back about the past..so many regrets. but they say its better to look ahead and be prepare than to look back and see regrets.. easier said than done i say. just hope i can leave this school without any enemies, with all my disputes settled, with everyone as a fren, and hopefully be remember by those that remain. they say people only die when they're forgotten. the past 4 years have been an extremely significant part of my life. i've changed so much since the first day i came in..
no use regretting. haiz. till next time. bye.
to meilan: really nice of you to say 'bye' to me today. thanks. and i really mean it.

amazed

2005-03-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

hm..i tot about it. of course after reading someone's blog. haha why are we all so secretive? ya la i read lek's blog la. i know there's probably the fear of offending me again, lax man. one time is enough for me. you're rite, the retribution did came. i think i think too much. just like what u said. dun care them. that's the problem wif me.. probably too insecure, probably too stubborn to face reality. no one's stopping me, maybe its me unconsciously stopping myself. fame..i didn't do all that for fame.. i didn't realise that anything good would come out of doing all that. nah, i dun wan to think about it anymore. u're a fren now. i dun hate you. not at all.

to her
you know i tot of you when i saw that scene. he slept while the ger talked, just like what i did when u were toking then. suddenly memories came back. did i love u? or was it responsibility?
but the reason why the guy broke..same as mine. if i can't make u happy, and please you, and if its so tiring..then its better that we break..
now when i think of all this, i feel nothing..have i gotten over it already? is it finally over. i hope so. glad to see that you've moved on..stay happy.. xing fu zhi hou, bie lai zai wo, dai zhe ni de kuai le he ta ji xu wang qian zhou, bu shu yu wo, wo bu hai nan guo, wo zi dao, you yi yang de tian kong..

why..

2005-03-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

ai wu ji wu..a necessity? why do they dislike me? my past? why is it always my past? why always use my past..am i that hateable? maybe i am that hateable. but i nv offend you all. why u all oppose to me liking her? anyway, you all can't stop me from liking her. even if she doesn't like me, or you dun like me, you all can't stop me. no way. dun care.. its really hard not to care. its just not me. am i really that bad? what i did to lek, the things i say, the people i treated..i know these are bad. who is good all the time? not me..dun force me. i dun like to be mean all the time. you won't like it either.

2005-03-14T20:49:00.001+08:00

finally his face.
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2005-03-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

The solitaire guy. keeps turning when i try to take a pic of him
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2005-03-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

aimran!
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2005-03-14T20:48:00.001+08:00

the dancers x fusion
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2005-03-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

Darren's obituary photo
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2005-03-14T20:47:00.002+08:00

silent epidemic
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Close-up
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Best dressed. the orange one is darren. kenna saboed by "beyonce"
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2005-03-14T20:46:00.002+08:00

wilson!
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2005-03-14T20:46:00.001+08:00

Eric's Band
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the heretics band..
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2005-03-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

Arvind and Fadzli
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The Dance..
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2005-03-14T20:44:00.001+08:00

Me wei jian and ben chow!
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Qing hong!
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2005-03-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

xiao yan and me
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2005-03-14T20:42:00.002+08:00

Lenis. moody
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2005-03-14T20:42:00.001+08:00

Ben chow Dickson
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2005-03-14T20:42:00.000+08:00

ying jie
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2005-03-14T20:41:00.001+08:00

Wei jian
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guo hao and ying jie
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what a day

2005-03-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

what a day..let's start from the interesting one. wow feels like my chess improved..ate a lot of darren's pieces but in the end still lose. kept attacking then nv defend properly.. Then azhar go take my bag and then unfortunately he dropped it from the 4th floor to the first floor.. lucky no one downstairs..inside onli clothes..lucky. lucky i dun have mp3 or any other gadgets in side.. then we went to assembly! best assembly ever! There's was Doctor Atomic Leow. Yes his name is atomic. he's really very funny, has an extremely short tongue, we have to try to undersrand what he's saying but actually no one really cares and we just know he praising us so we just cheered after he finished each line! hahaha..ultimate sia he..gonna start a fan club for him sia. then we had the sex tape..on why teens should not have sex and things lik tat. in the story there's this ger call amy who doesn't appear but is very important becos she's the one who infect the people that actually appeared in the show. most important character yet she doesnt even appear in the movie. what's the moral of the story : dun fuck amy-s. well tml is music is it..gonna be taking lots of photos..so do come and back and view them. till next post. bye bye!

grin

2005-03-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

There's always this question..to blog or not to blog. I've always seriously pondered about it. the comments of course can affect people. i think what i typed is what i feel. A blogger writes what he feels. otherwise what's the purpose in blogging? Then again of course there's the question of to read or not to read. IF u read it and affects u, well u chose to read it, i couldn't stop you. It seems people are still not really aware of their mistakes. It feels great to know that yes, my plan for peace is working and we will not cross our paths. and we will not go beyond the line. we will not care about each other. Am i a nice person? Of course i'm not, who is? but people still comment about others, don they? well to me, the people around u are mirrors. how they treat u, reflects how u treat them. So, i hope u get what i am saying. Start thinking of ur problems and its good that u still have frens there to encourage it. I understand we all treat different people differently. Of course, sometimes the difference is just too great. Was i overboard in what i typed? hm..heartfelt words i must say. Have you realised that you comment on ours a lot too? Are you Damn nice? Why is it we always criticise others, without realising our own "imperfections". But comments were meant to be of course, heard. i'm glad u heard mine and hearing yours. Give up on blogging. Whatever for. Blogging is great therapy for our stressful lives. and a great "voice" to say out our inner thoughts. so i hope u start pondering...i think there's really a lot to ponder. saying u dun care and just care about your own life now. hm.. that's avoiding the problem isn't it. but nvm, people choose what they want to be. whether they lik the consequences of being what they are, that's another thing. think about it this way, at least u have true friends now. all i wanted was to show what kind of a person u are. I guess i failed. Show me your good points please, i'll gladly comment on them here too : ) of course i can't always be criticising others, i even criticise myself. yeah i'll start praising

disaster.

2005-03-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

what was i doing?! what the fuck man! fastest goal ever. own goal! first person to score own goal!
all i remember was the whistle..ball comes over..the striker running towards me..i chioing to him..can still remember we both pushing each other..chasing the ball..can see wilson..the ball's bouncing..then me and tat guy both kicked..i really tried to clear..but it went in. and that was how the game started wif us at the disadvantage. then the second goal..the ball was normal speed..wilson was on the floor..trying to kick it away..but he missed..then it went in. 2-0!! then we kept attacking..finally second half. alex come and then we sent him in front and sent xishao behind. he missed a lot of shots. bad day man. me and wilson sure gonna kenna screw sia..

2005-03-04T21:55:00.001+08:00

denan purposely posing wif fries.
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2005-03-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

the boys found a ball that was was kicked into the forest dunno from how long ago.
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2005-03-04T21:54:00.001+08:00

Haziq!
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2005-03-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

Hayden!
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2005-03-04T21:53:00.001+08:00

ikhwan danial aziz khaizal dino andiekah woon chian
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2005-03-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

Raof joseph jason jun cheng terence
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2005-03-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

Part B normally. monkeys
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2005-03-04T21:51:00.001+08:00

Part b in diam position! quite poor attendance.
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A lot of excos ..so blur i can't tell who's who
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2005-03-04T21:50:00.001+08:00

Excos in blazers
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Me in blazer!
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Karl
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On stage flipping! taken by audrey
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2005-03-04T21:48:00.001+08:00

Council Excos 2004 Clockwise from top row: christine shiyun royce yan shan vicki shawna me lek
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disgusted.

2005-03-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i am asking for trouble..but then i think i really should say all this out.
I think i've kept it inside long enough.
What's the hell is wrong wif you. Running at the sight of trouble. Why have you changed so much. I dun remember you being lik this for the past 3 years. Or maybe lik her, tis is the real u tis year. Everyone knew it should be you who shld go take the ball. Yet u ran away, say what help sophian. please lor, sophian could walk already. if u were so concerned, why didn't u stop playing and help him immediately? Why am i typing this about u here? i know u'll say i'm talking behind your back. Well, i'm just doin what you do. talking behind people's back. Critcising me in class, for temasek cup, during ncc. Please, Go and take care of your own part can or not? I may be your classmate, your platoon mate, but please, show some respect. You dun even know basic respect. otherwise why were we all given ranks? What have i done to you? If u dun like me, then u can just ignore me. You stay clear of my way, and i'll won't get in your way. I know the things u say about me behind my back too. And Why do you always like to act lik you're so great? Have you no humility? Telling people to shut up, manipulating others. Come up wif better reasons next time la. its so obvious u didn't want to join their band, so u lied that u were a judge, then u formed your own band wif others. Hypocritical. The things u say are in contrast as u move from one side to another. Jamie Foxx shouldn't haven't have won the oscar, you should!Please man, think about what you have done.. it has reached the stage where We're just classmates, not frens. Its thanks to you. Classmate.
And u, the "her" from above. maybe you're the reason why he's lik that. the 4 of u. I read what u wrote. Can't believe u're so self centred. And you love commenting on others dun you? Another egoistic person. Always saying that sharon is faking her injury. Please, it takes time to recover. What if it was you who was injured? And now u're complaining about having to stay in the classroom, but a few months ago, won't u the one who Strongly opposed to home room? Have you ever realised why people treat u and say the things they say about u? DO u think that the problem is always wif others? I can still remember how u and f and l turned against me all of a sudden. Thanks for showing me what kind of people u all are. And you think by apologising to me, everything's settled? I'm glad we are only classmates. But please, at least be a better classmate. You complained that people dun care about frenships, and that u're so happy wif ur own lil group of frens now. Well good for u. Think about how u've treated ur frens. It seems lik u merely used them. Have you ever tot of their feelings? Have you ever realised that the problem was with u and not them? U always find others irritatin, but what about you? have you tot about what ur actions are like to others? Please think more about others..please. and dun be so egoistic and manipulative. And please don't always comment so much. Its rude. and shows how self centred u are and how arrogant u are. Your attitude is the worst. Its sad that u've spend so much time judging others, u missed out on judging yourself. Please start doing so. Its not too late to realise your mistakes. Then again, u 4 will prob be pissed wif me. I'm ashamed that i dare not say out all this in your faces. But tis is our last year. i just hope to get out and nv get to see you all again. I guess quite a few of our classmates feel the same way thus we all just kept it inside us. the 4 of u..please just stay away. We won't get in your way and u dun come and get in ours. I dun wan the clash to split into groups. Let's just look as though we are one big family on the surface. Clashing won't do any good. Let's just stay away from each other. I'm pretty sure once u read this u know i'm talking about you. I know you guys will be angry. But the harshest words are usually the most truthful. I hope u guys can reflect and change. its not too late to be frens again.

2005-02-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

choon wei, oblivious that he's being shot
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2005-02-28T19:27:00.001+08:00

wei jian, me, ben chow, flash mode!
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2005-02-28T19:27:00.000+08:00

wei jian, me and ben chow. i forgotten to switch to flash mode
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2005-02-28T19:26:00.002+08:00

Me and choon wei
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2005-02-28T19:26:00.001+08:00

Ben chow and wei jian. and the driver who looks like tung jian hwa
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2005-02-28T19:26:00.000+08:00

Wei Jian
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2005-02-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

forests in tampines-pasir ris area burnt from bush fires..looks like autumn..taken from mrt
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dao dai

2005-02-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

yo..haha it finally rained today! and i was caught in it on the way to shawna's house..her doorbell spoil so i was in the rain for a while before finally auntie merci came to open..then had tuition..then go mac wif tian cai and wilson..then finally highlight of the day was the plays!. once again at ulu pandan, somewhere in ghim oh, buona vista area..Then well most of the time was me and ben chow chatting..Then after that bus took us back to bedok..then we ate kfc there, me choon wei and ben chow..then we went to find karaoke cd..i wanna buy the jolin de then i sing dao dai for karaoke..i singing it for the meaning of the song..and cos my voice can do it for jolin version. jay version is too high for me le..for now i must memorise the dao dai lyrics first..

me..

2005-02-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

now that i've simmered down. let's address some issues that i have heard of lately.
i am very hua xin. am i? fickle?
i think its just that i am a low-confidence creature. i feel that there's no chance le, that's why i give up..the gers i liked before..i really did liked them. and its one at a time contrary to what others think. hao ming says every fickle person says that. well, i say it and I MEAN IT. up to you all to believe. i dun wish to be tis fickle asshole also, u think its fun bein me? i remember watching lu xiao feng that day..he was toking about his past relationships..though infamous for being wif many gers, he said that he was serious about each and everyone of them..i could totally relate to that. i'm not like wei xiao bao, so greedy, like so many at a time..more similar to lu xiao feng. always serious about the person. unfortunately , the gers we like, we nv end up together, or together for long de. but i don regret. failure is the mother of success isn't it? i dunno why i can like a person so easily..It isn't easy to give up liking a person either. its painful and cruel to one'self. i trying to change..but i can't control my feelings also. they're lik the stock market, high and low. i'll try not to give up so easily also..hope u all understand.

to hell wif u 2

2005-02-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Loser. U're not funny at all. trying to pick a fight wif me? u'll regret u did that. Can u sing? i doubt so. U just like to pretend like u're a pro, just lik the rest of ur kind. Can u even stand properly in front of the whole school and say the pledge? and u still dare mock at the command speakers. lowlife. U dun even dare to break wif a ger decently. What r u? a bug? what happened to ur courage, u fool? aren't u very daring? Flirty asshole. even though i not very gd wif her, i still feel sorry and at the same time happy for her. sorry for what u did to her, and happy that she's finally gotten rid of u, u bastard. u're not as tough as u pretend to be, so get a life. Always pretending to be some big shot eh? i regret letting u become part of our gang then. u're so Thickskinned, i wonder what weapon could harm u.u and ur kind and ur class. dun think i dunno what u say about me behind my back. come on, what's the use of talking, try showing that u're better. Empty vessel. wow great basketball skills and great taste u have, and can still rmb u trying to convince me that u look good. god i feel so remorseful telling u that u look good.Ur hobby is self-advertising rite? Call me noisy? take a look at the mirror la boy. I wonder how many times i should have told u to shut up all these years. I hope after tis year i nv get to see you ever again fucker. Its so painful, having to pay lip service to u. Why dun u just do me a favour and just be invisible or something. i hate having to be hypocritical to you the same way u've been to me all these years. but i guess i've got no choice anymore. u've gone too far. i hate myself for not punching u. u fucking deserve a beating. kinda happy to hear u got that from others. but wished u could just die from that or something. why did i even help u then, should have just let u suffer there. u dun deserve any help. i know u think i'm some inferior creature compared to u. Man, u've changed or maybe tis is what u truly are. a parasite who comes and goes to where it can get benefits from. I can sense that u know how much i hate u. I know u know. always trying to hit me accidentally. why did i even treat u as a fren. god, save me please.

And u, just like the one above. Another double-headed snake. Everywhere u go, u try to get others to like u. Why do u love the limelight so much. why do u have such a huge ego? think u're some alpha male? come on, take a look at yourself. u're much too optimistic i think. Always thinking you're the best? worsestill i have to c you everyday, backstabbing ass. i know u feel that it should have been u. too bad. u better respect it. sore loser. think u're cool rebelling? The world doesn't revolve around u. how come u're good in maths yet u suck in being a human? U and the others, the same type of power-craving people that love the limelight, and gang up on others. So anyone u all dun like, means u all can anti him/her? wait till the tables are turned on you. Ur ego is so huge, maybe that's why u're so large. Fat to be precise. and no u do not look good. u fake fren. to think i treat u as a brother last time. why do the people i know..are starting to show what demons they really are? demons belong in hell.. wish someone could send u there right now..

oops..

2005-02-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

Well firstly, sorry royce. i didn't know. i will learn to keep secrets that are invalid or valid..
spread if u're angry bah..i deserve it. i know. sorry.
Mubarak is kinda funny though he's fierce. according to him, we're all carrying flags..haha ask any councillor why. we're not allowed to spike hair!! hahaah what am i going to do..but ya nvm la.. my hair growing already. so soon can't spike liao le. good luck to the sec 2s and 3s. he's lik anqi sia..back to the military council days. then again i think is good la. cos our discipline realli declining..a storm is coming..haiz..

Dilemma

2005-02-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

Dilemma. I wanna love her and be wif her..but i'm not confident of making her happy..and she doesn't love me, her heart belongs to someone else. what am i to her? nothing i guess. just a passerby? i've told myself not to expect so much..wrong time too..but why do i keep thinking about this? All these questions..i used to know the answers, didn't i? how come i dunno the answers now..What would happen if she knew about my feelings? she'll prob will nv treat the same way ever again..would i want it to be that way. Its a gamble..i've lost before..dun wanna lose again.. Didn't get to see her today..saw her wif someone else though..Wonder if she notices me. humans are greedy, they always expect too much..i am guilty of this..i'm trying so hard not to. it realli hurt reading that. She's upset too. I can only comfort her in my heart.. Chi xin jue dui is the prob the song best suited to describe what i wanna say.. Put my feelings on hold..but its so difficult to force yourself to stop.. wish i can see you tml, wish we can talk..even a word and i'll be content..

2005-02-14T22:11:00.001+08:00

everyone plus me! bottom right la
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2005-02-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

look at those hands! so fast! kuan loong's place by the way. that's puay ming and shunmin
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2005-02-14T22:10:00.001+08:00

jingling tian cai sam sian wei tian cai ying ying
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2005-02-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

the gers. dunno who, ying ying, jing ling, wenjing, mei yin
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2005-02-14T22:09:00.001+08:00

phileo, sing wei wilson sian wei and unknown
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2005-02-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

my winnings!
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2005-02-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

royce's big head.
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2005-02-14T22:08:00.001+08:00

shawna's place
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2005-02-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

shawna royce vicki downstairs of my block
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2005-02-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

the door of my room and my cupboard
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2005-02-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

jay chou poster! so big!
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Rock Bottom..

2005-02-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

rock bottom refers to my mood now..
i regret talking to ice queen..try to be fren de mah. but then kenna suan till lik tat. hao ming was rite. but i think she is born lik tis de, can't sense any ill intentions from her. maybe she didn't get what i was trying to say. i just feel that using love to describe the relationship between frens of same sex, brothers, sisters, parents and children, friends, is wrong..its not the same feeling as that of u and a person of another gender. whereas the rest are about the same. or maybe cos i dun feel much towards the rest other than friends and the special person i like. i nv met anyone who could suan lik that. truly powerful. pei fu. then again she's quite funny, especially that last part. i think she pissed wif me. who wouldn't. just wanna say sorry here. why do i sound so weak. cos i am.. down and depressed. wrong day to talk to ice queen i think. hm.. ice queens sounds mean. let's think of another name. J ba. J contains no negative or positive meaning behind it. i won't get fired for my comments lik the other unfortunate bloggers too. J, my english sucks. i know le. u realli showed me. i will motivate myself. i think that's what u want to to do, but just in a mean way. but i think u're born lik tis, rite? can feel u not even trying to be mean yet. or maybe u are and u hate me, and i dunno that u hate me. maybe. but nvm. after talking to u J, i felt lik crying. finally know how the others that i've been mean to, have felt. was i purposely being mean to them? i guess i was, just for what i tot was humour. black humour i would say. and here u came, J, effortless suaning me and i feel like i've been hit by an mrt. "why r u so emotional and typing this crap?" is prob the question the readers are saying now when they're reading this, laughing at me. I'm sorry. I'm just born like tis, emotional, pessimistic, crappy. I jus wanna fa xie what i feel here, dun wanna keep it inside. i'm feeling down damn it, give me a break.laugh at me? Don read if u think its crap. not meant for just u anyway. do u dare to type out how u feel here and show it to the rest of the world? do u even dare to cry you lowlife? what's so funny about a person feeling down and remorseful? maybe i should ask myself these questions after all that i've done to them. i'm gonna try to be a better person. ya and eat more vegetables to have strong legs, according to what i heard from others today. LEt it be..say ya qin. i agree. keep my comments to myself. ya that's what mei lan and freda tried to teach me before. thanks ger i understand now..i must be a better person..thanks to those who are trying to understand what i'm typing or just simply sympathise me. thanks. i go watch jay chou vcd. thanks. bye..

2005-02-10T20:15:00.001+08:00

singing the birthday song!
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2005-02-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

shawna royce lek me ivan
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2005-02-10T20:14:00.001+08:00

lek at fountain of wealth
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2005-02-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

lek eating!
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2005-02-10T20:13:00.001+08:00

royce and hanyang's apple crumble
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2005-02-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

shawna ivan hanyang waiterabove alex
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2005-02-10T20:11:00.001+08:00

the cake! and my thumbsup
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2005-02-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

at swensens waiting for arrival of vip
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2005-02-10T20:10:00.001+08:00

the girls bowing to us.
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2005-02-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

me, alex, ivan. shaky
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2005-02-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

in the shuttle bus to sun tec. the gers are shy
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